I love my life…everything about it. I’m blessed to have such a wonderful family who would do anything for me. I have a warm, safe, comfortable home to live in (free of charge I might add…perks of living at home with the ‘rents while I’m in law school!). I have a vehicle to drive, a part time job as a fitness instructor (a life goal of mine, actually), and I am grateful to be in law school. I have nice things (okay, I’ll admit…I’m a shopaholic), and I get to do lots of fun things with family and friends most of the time…when I’m not doing law school work. Ha ha.
So why do I always look for something more? Why do I always see what someone else has and think, hmm, I really wish that were me? I think that envious feeling is an innate human quality (or maybe that isn’t the right word…?) but I think we all experience it. I find myself sometimes wishing I was driving that new BMW or buying an entire wardrobe of Michael Kors and Marc Jacobs clothing (they’re my DREAM TEAM). I dislike that feeling so much, because sometimes it makes me feel like I’ll never get there, to that level. Of wealth. Of success. Of happiness. But wait…did I basically just say that money and labels equal happiness??? Unfortunately, I’ve found myself thinking that from time to time. Its pretty sad that I catch myself thinking that status equals happiness. I’ve been working on changing that view…by reminding myself of all the things that really make me happy. A weekend road trip with my family, walking on the beach at night, running outside on a cool day, relaxing on the couch with my boyfriend after a long day, going out with friends, photography, unwinding with yoga…the list goes on. Yes, some of those things do cost money, but the benefits of being a part of all of those things far outweighs the costs that are incurred to do them. I’m getting older, but I still have a lot to learn. I’d like to think that I look at life from a fairly mature standpoint nowadays…I know that when I was 17, 18, even 19, I had a difficult time seeing that there are greater things in life than mere status symbols like money and labels.
That was pretty deep, I know…haha. I have just been doing my best to always look at the joy in the small things in life, because they tend to mean the most. I’m still learning to appreciate a lot of those things, but one thing I do know is that the loving and caring nature of my family and friends is what makes my world spin around, and money can’t buy that :)
So I’m sitting here in Starbucks…which has become my second home these days. My first home being law school…haha. And thirdly(?) would be my actual home. Yep, the school year has kicked into full gear, and I’m surprisingly calm about it all. I feel like I have gotten into a pretty good routine already, even after just (almost) two weeks of classes. I had a few thoughts cross my mind last week that maybe, just maybe I was getting in too deep…but then I realized all of that was just nerves, and I made myself look at this as a positive thing and realized that this is what I’ve always wanted to do! And you know what, I find myself enjoying sitting in class and LEARNING…yeah, who woulda thought?! haha…I have pretty much always found classes to be boring since high school and through college, but now, I enjoy the opportunity to learn. I think its because this is what I have dreamed of doing for a very long time, and can I just say, it feels really good to be accomplishing big goals that I’ve set for myself!
I told myself that I was not going to back off any of my workout time, and so far, I’ve kept my word. No one messes with “workin’ on my fitness”…haha ;) I am still teaching Spin a few times a week…makin’ that money…or very little money…haha. I’ve had to switch up my workout schedule quite a bit, and I find myself reading cases while running on the treadmill often, but hey, it goes by a lot quicker! I can’t wait for it to get cooler outside though, because running out on the backroads in the Fall is my favorite! Unfortunately for me, I haven’t been running enough long runs in prep for the NYC Marathon…so yeah, I don’t know where I stand with that right now. I want to run it, but I also want to train properly. If I can squeeze in a long run before this weekend is over, I think I could still pull it off. I guess I’ll see how that goes…ha. Seems as though the weekends are busy lately! I think I’m pretty much booked through the Fall…but if you know me, you know I thrive off of being busy! ;)
Well here I am again neglecting my blog…ha ha! July has turned out to be pretty busy, so I haven’t had time to sit down and write out my thoughts and catch up with where my life has taken me lately!
First of all, I just found out I was accepted to a law school nearby my home, so I will be commuting from home now instead of moving 5 hours away to go to law school in Charlotte! I’m a little excited, to be honest…I wasn’t sure about moving to a big city where I knew no one…and not to mention I love being home. After being 5 hours away from home at college the past few years, its nice to be back in my hometown :)
I also finally started teaching group fitness classes at the gym, and since I’m living at home now(!) I get to continue to work throughout the school year…I’ve never worked and juggled school at the same time, but hey, I know I’m going to work out anyways every day, so may as well get paid to do it! haha ;) I’m going to stay busy with this one though…I have lots of trainings to take to be an “official” Y employee and then I’ll have trainings that I have to keep up-to-date every year as well. I’m really excited though…this is what I’ve always wanted to do. Some people have dreamed of becoming an actress…or a doctor…or a musician…but I’ve dreamed of becoming a fitness instructor! haha…kidding…maybe…
I’ve been spending lots of time with family & friends…I love summer and everything it entails. Parties, fun, swimming, riding on the backroads listening to good music, random road trips and lots of fun. Ah. We haven’t even gotten to the good stuff yet…concerts, friends visiting, and vacation are coming up real soon…so excited! Here’s to hoping summer slows down just a bit so we can enjoy it as much as possible! ;)
1. FOUR DAYS. That’s how many days of class I have left of undergrad…forever. Can’t believe how quickly this semester went by and how soon graduation is! I feel like high school graduation was not long ago, but here I am about to graduate from college…well, an entire year early…so that might be why it feels so soon!
2. In five short days, the boy will be here with me….for 1.5 weeks until after Graduation Day when I get to go HOME! So excited for summer…looks like its going to be a great one :)
3. I just applied to a law school close to home…as in, I could commute to class every day. (Yeah, I’ve already been accepted and sent in my first deposit to another school.) My mom wanted me to at least apply, because apparently the school has a good reputation (which I’m still iffy about) and because in the long run, it would be cheaper. It actually would be nice to not be in as much debt, and after spending too many semesters 5 hours away from home, I’m actually not sure I want to move away from home again in the Fall. I always thought I’d be adventurous…and I still want to be sometimes, but the reality of it is, I’m from a small town and will probably never leave. I’ll travel a lot, and likely commute 45 minutes to my future job, but I just feel like home is where the heart is. Cliche, I know. But so true :)
Its finally the home stretch…a month of classes left and then just waiting around for Graduation Day to get here…sooo ready! I’ve finally figured out how to spread the last of my schoolwork/projects out across the month of April, so I shouldn’t have to worry about too much s-t-r-e-s-s anymore, thank goodness :) I woke up this morning absolutely dreading classes or anything pertaining to school…and I realized that graduation really couldn’t get here at a better time. I seriously feel burned out from college and I would probably want to just give up now if I knew I still had a year to go…ha ha! But really, I’m so so so glad to be graduating from this place…for more than one reason. I will say that I probably won’t be visiting the ‘Burg ANYtime soon….as in probably years after I graduate. I just never really fell in love with this place, and while I’ve met some really great people, I prefer my friends from home. That sounds pretty harsh….but so true. haha. I’ve found that a lot of people here just are different than what I’m used to. I’m from a Southern town with real hospitality, and that is severely lacking here.
I recently was accepted to a great law school, but the stipulation is that I would have to attend a summer program for 7 weeks. This is a very good school, and I feel the most positive about this one out of all the schools I’ve been accepted to. However, I would not be at home for most of the summer (the school is 3 hours away), and I would not be able to work my summer job…which means no $$$. I’m not sure yet what I should do…its so tempting….but I’m not sure if I can be dedicated enough to take two law courses over the summer beginning a week after college graduation. I’m sure it is an excellent opportunity…its definitely something I need to think about. This morning when I woke up not wanting to go to classes, I thought about how I could potentially be taking law classes less than two weeks after I finish college, and it made me feel even more burned out honestly. haha. Definitely need to put more thought into this! ;)
Ahhh I think last week was the busiest week I’ve had (in a while, at least). Three term papers (yeah, I wondered how they could be term papers…the semester isn’t over yet!) kept me super busy all last week, which was not fun. I took Thursday and Friday “off” from doing schoolwork to recuperate for the rest of the semester…still lots of work to do, but its coming together pretty well now.
Yesterday, I helped Relay for Life raise money at a Hot Yoga class at the local yoga studio…and I even had time to take the class too :) I LOVE Hot Yoga, which I’m sure you already knew if you read my blog…ha ha. I think we raised a pretty good amount for Relay, and there were LOTS of people that had never done Hot Yoga before, so maybe the studio will have lots of new yogis now ;) When I got back to the townhouse, I knew that I had a hot date with my Nutrition project…yes. I started compiling it and doing calculations around 6pm, and I didn’t finish working on it until almost 11pm! But the important thing is, its done, and now I can focus on other work I need to get done!
I actually feel productive this weekend…I took an online quiz this morning, and after a long run, I have to go to a Personal Training practice sesh (we have to go to 3 events/practices to get credit for class). So all in all, this weekend has been FULL of fitness and nutrition…and I love it. Maybe I should rethink my career path…haha. Fitness>lawyer-ing. However, the $$$ is probably a LOT less! And with my shopping obsession, maybe I should stick with going to law school and (hopefully) making big bucks……
Oh the irony…how is pain ever good? Well the kind of pain that is muscle soreness never seems to be a bad thing! Let’s see:
Monday–rest day + yoga to stretch after the Half
Tuesday–6 mile interval run
Wednesday–5 mile hill run outside…in perfect weather :)
Thursday–impromptu Bootcamp workout in Personal Training class + one hour elliptical intervals…serious workout day
Friday–BodyPump + super-speedy 5k + fitness assessment project work (aka death–wayyy too many pushups/situps)
…all of that has left me incredibly sore tonight. In a good way of course :)
I’ve had a great workout week even after running a half marathon on Sunday. It’s amazing how being so active makes recovery time so quick! Going out for a 13.1 mile run is just a workout for the books nowadays…so maybe I should look into a new challenge…a marathon? I think so ;) I am registered for the NYC Marathon lottery…and I think April 7th is the announcement day. We shall see! If I don’t get to run NYC, I’m eyeing the OBX Marathon…close to my home, plus its my favorite, favorite place in the entire world. I practically grew up there…so it would be a super-fun marathon :) Both of these are in November…which means I would be doing my longest runs during the first two months of law school…scary! I know I’m going to be busy with school…but I never sacrifice a good workout…and I never will. Law school is not going to change that…haha. I’m pretty stubborn ;)
I know there’s sooo much I need to be doing right now but quite honestly I’m being lazy and enjoying it…haha. I’ve had an extremely busy week and the rest of my time in college is going to be busybusybusy, so I’m laying low tonight. Graduation in 48 days! ;)